The Problem With Worry

Sunday Scribbling’s prompt this week is “worry”.  Questions were asked to help us come up with a creative scribbling, but I feel the urge to reply uncreatively, at least for a start. Here goes:

 
Are you a worrier?  YES!
Know one?  Aside from me? My Dad
Is there a particular worry that you can’t shake?  A lot
Ways of coping with worrying? Prayer and Meditation on God’s sovereignty and goodness
 
It’s interesting that this prompt came up this week, just as worry’s ugly head kept on intruding my thoughts this past couple of weeks. 
 
I am a worrier. I told you that already.  There are a lot of things I worry about.  If I try to scribble all about my worries, I would wind up writing a book instead of a scribbling.
 
Worry is unhealthy. It strips us of a lot of things, like joy, sleep, physical health and even friends. Did I say friends?  I did. And let me zero in on that  because that’s one demon I am dealing with right now. Worrying about friends and friendship. Not a good thing.
 
Lately I am finding myself avoiding a lot of church friends.  I am noticing it on myself more and more. After Sunday services, all I want to do is go home. I didn’t want to stay in the courtyard where we are supposed to be “fellowshipping” with one another. No, the word fellowship is not enjoyable to me, it actually worries me. 
 
My husband once said that he thinks the reason why I blog a lot and spend so much time in the internet is because I am lonely. I vehemently opposed him. I told him he was wrong.  And yet, right now as I am typing this I am thinking there must be some truth to that observation.  I think I am a bit lonely.  I think I am feeling displaced.
 
One big problem is that I avoid people who I think do not like me, and people who I think is bored with me and do not enjoy my company. This is a dangerous thing because I base it all on my perception on whether a person likes me or not.  I also based it on my intuition. It is very subjective.  This is really not a good thing. And maybe that is why I am scribbling about it – to let it out of my chest. To release it and not let that seed of insecurity grow.
 
I am feeling displaced and disconnected and a lot of it is my fault.  I worry about friendships but worrying about it will not do me any good. 

What’s Up? Not Much

Both G and N are on a Tweens Camp organized by Hope Chapel. I dropped them off last Saturday morning and the pick up is not til Monday noon. That means my husband and I are alone in the house! What to do? what to do? One suggestion was for us to run around the house naked and do the husband and wife thing. What thing? You know (gosh, this is a G rated blog, you don’t expect me to write the details here do you – LOL!).

But there’s laundry to fold, clutter to clear, project to do, taxes to file…

But then again, this is a rare moment. When was the last time my husband and I had the time to be alone – just us? I can’t even remember. So we took (are taking) advantage of this “honeymoon time”.

I am ending my post for now. Hubby is taking me out to dinner to our favorite Thai Restaurant. Not too fancy, but with the recent news of my job termination and our present economy, eating out is already a “fancy” thing to do. We are just going to enjoy our time together.

I really have a lot to “talk about” and had been itching to post more but I guess I’ll save them all for tomorrow. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day tomorrow!

Me Talk Politics?

It’s Martin Luther King Jr Day today. It’s also a day away from the historic Inauguration of our new President, Mr. Barrack Obama. Something inside me is compelled to come out of my “shell” and talk politics today. Nothing too intense or analytical, just a musing to express my views (afterall this is a Liza’s Eyeview blog).

I don’t know what is it that makes it very difficult for me to talk about politics. It could be the fact that I grew up in the “martial law era” (Marcos’ regime in the Philippines) and was trained not to speak against the government or I’d go to jail. It could be because I am way too much of a pleaser and I do not want to disappoint any of my friends who is not of the same view as I have about a certain issue or political figure. It seems to me like if I vote someone that my close friends do not like, I am betraying them. I know that is not true, but sometimes I feel that way. So really, why don’t I like talking about politics? I do not know, but it’s a choice I made.

And yet today I am choosing to talk a little bit about it. Because the more the presidential inauguration comes close, the more I get excited about it. You see I voted for President Barrack Obama. And that was a “hard thing” for me to do. It did not come easy because of some moral issues that I do not agree with him (like abortion). I have always been a “republican” by heart. I adhere more to their principles than the principles of the democratic party. But for some reason, this election I could not get my self to vote for Mr. McCain. Not that I do not like him. I highly respect Mr. McCain and if it was not Mr. Obama running against him, I would have voted for him.

But there is something about the upcoming President Obama that gives me hope. Sure I disagree with him about the “abortion issue”. But there are so many other issues to consider – it’s almost like I had to lose a battle to win the war. No one leader is perfect. Even King David was flawed. I just need to continue praying for Mr. Obama on these issues. But the fact that he chose Rick Warren to do the inaugural blessing despite opposition is a sign of hope for me.

What makes President Obama so charismatic? In my opinion, one of his greatest attraction is his love for his family. That was one of my drawing points to him. The big and little things they did together, not just his immediate family but the extended family as well – that speaks something to me. I know that his Toots is so proud of him while she’s smiling at him from heaven. When I read that he is bringing along his mother in law to live with them in the White House (if she wants to) to help take care of their precious girls, that spoke a lot to me. When I read that he wrote a letter to his girls prior to the inauguration, that touched my heart. And what about that bumping of knuckles thingy that he and Michelle did during the campaign? For me, that is such nice glimpse of how fun their marriage is.

And then there’s also his clever use of technology that made me smile. During the campaign, he used Facebook, Twitter, Blogs and all sorts of Social Media Networking to reach the masses. How cool is that! Last night I told my husband excitedly “hey, I found the official blog for the inauguration – they are live blogging it!” Of course my husband didn’t care, but knowing how he feels about my blogging, I had to rub it in – LOL!

Oh, I guess we just have to wait and see how our country will be under his leadership. There is a lot to do. There’s a lot to re-build. The economic issue alone is enormous. For now, I have hopes, I have high hopes. And that’s good enough for now.

Happy Martin Luther King, Jr. Day! Let’s live the dream!

Thankful Thursday

There are so many things I am thankful for. Where do I begin?

1. Thankful for my parents for their unending support and encouragement. The older my kids get and the more complicated parenting gets, the more I appreciate my parents on how they lovingly raised me and my brothers. They are not perfect, but they sure tried their best, and I love the for it.

2. Thankful for my employer. I am also thankful for the many contact, colleagues and friends I’ve made through and by work. Today I sent out an e-mail informing them of my last week at work. I had gotten several e-mails containing sweet words on how great it was working with me and how I would be missed. The e-mails were touching, and I am thankful for it.

3. Thankful for N’s ballet class and G’s taekwondo class. They both enjoy their respective classes and their respective instructors are so wonderful. They have such great rapport with the kids.

4. Thankful for the house we live in. And the food we eat.

5. Thankful for Elle (Free Range Media) for all the work she’s putting in to make my A Maui Blog beautiful and functional.. She helped move A Maui Blog on WordPress, and soon my new design will be up. I am so excited!

6. Thankful for the presidential inauguration this week. It was inspiring.

7. Thankful for the weekend that the kids had at Tweens Camp. Thankful for the dedicated workers who helped, out and thankful for the Children’s ministry staff who worked so hard to get this camp organized.

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show me the money

My postings on blogs are a bit scarce and my participation on bloggy carnivals are not as active as it used to be. In fact I can’t believe I missed participating at the Bloggy Giveaways. The reason? I was busy Twittering! Not that I will give up my blogging for twittering. Blogging is my first love (on internet social networking that is) but recently Twittering is bringing me a lot of excitement and inspiring me to pursue Internet Marketing as my “work at home” career.

Last weekend I organized a “Maui-Tweet-up” and met with some Twitters from Maui, and well as Jeremiah Owyang who is a web strategist and web analyst with Forrester. Joey Johnson, my marketing genius friend, would have been so proud of me! The tweet-up went well and I am now organizing another one. This whole social networking thing at Twitter amazes me. I would never have thought in my wildest dream that I will venture into a marketing career but my passion for blogging is leading me there. The neat thing is that the Lord is opening windows of opportunities! I really believe He is leading the way. I started blogging for personal selfish reasons, then starting blogging as a ministry, and now it has come full circle, I am blogging and twittering for me to be able to have income while I stay at home and it’s ok (not selfish at all).

I can ramble on and on about my excitement on this new endeavor. But I won’t. I do not want to scare you dear readers and friends away. My Liza’s Eyeview blog will remain my personal blog where I talk about me, my family, and my personal walk with God. My other blog,A MAUI BLOG will be more of my “business blog”. A new design just got uploaded! We’re still doing some tweaks to make it nice but it is nice already!

Now you are probably wondering why my title says “Show Me The Money”. Well, it’s a joke (but not really a joke) from my husband. Last Sunday when I was rambling on and on about how excited I am about the Maui Tweet-up and my A MAUI BLOG blog, he patiently listened with a grin in his face. Then he said, well… remember that movie Jerry McGuire? Remember what Cuba Gooding keep on saying? “SHOW ME THE MONEY!!!!” Apparently he is very much aware that my A MAUI BLOG has not bring in any income at all. Well, not yet anyways. But it will. I know it will. But I am not focused on that right now. I am just so passionate about using this A MAUI BLOG to promote Maui that I know I do not have to worry about the income it should bring. As Zig Ziglar said, find a need, help fulfill the need, and you will become successful. I think that’s the secret of my success – I like fulfilling a need. It comes natural to me.

I got to get ready for work. Aloha!

From Vessel to Vessel, All For His Glory

Pastor Dominic announced on Sunday that he and his family are moving to England.  The first official announcement was done last Wednesday night. (listen to it at God of New Things podcast) .

We just started attending Calvary Chapel South Maui about a month ago, and I was truly enjoying pastor Dominic’s teachings. I was being ministered to in a way that I needed to.  So, deep inside of me I wanted to be very  disappointed when I first heard the news. Obviously, for selfish reasons. I wanted to feel betrayed or let down.  I wanted them to stay.  But the other part of me knows it’s all in God’s hands and it’s all part of the plan.  I knew he is following God’s will.

The last 4 weeks that we are going to Calvary Chapel I kept on thinking how much the Sunday messages were designed specially for me. Each Sunday I come home feeling encouraged by the Lord through pastor Dominic’s words. The truth is, the message was designed for all of us, including pastor Dominic’s family. God has a way of working together everything for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I am sad, yes. But life will go on and God will use another one to minister to me, to us. And he will use pastor Dominic and his family in England.

Last night I listened to the podcast of the Wednesday Bible Stody (God of New Things)  where he poured out his heart as he announced this move.  The story is all too close to my heart.  Many events in my life were similar in a way (even way back when I was still in the Philippines).  I thought of blogging about those stories, but can’t even find the energy or the words to do so. All I know is that there is a common thread in the stories: that sometimes God pour us from vessel to vessel to accomplish the will that He has for us and for the world.  What I had learned is that if we are sensitive to His leading, if we obey His words, and if stay close to Him, He will lead the way and blessings will be poured upon us.  It’s not always easy, but the peace of God would always be there.

One of the church member helped pastor Dominic set up a website for him and his family. And there’s a blog in it it. Talk about getting connected.  I always believe that a blog is one of the best connecting tool available out there, and I am glad a blog was set-up for him.

So what’s next? I don’t know.  Are we staying at Calvary or are we supposed to attend Kumulani Chapel? I think we are going to take it day by day, Sunday by Sunday, until we (my husband and I) know for sure where the next vessel we should be….

Am I the One For HopeLab?

A Twitterfriend of mine e-mailed me yesterday with this subject line: “a job 4 u?”.  In it was a link to a Manager of Communications and Emerging Media open position at Hope Lab. As I read the post I had to agree with my friend that that job opening could possibly be well for me.  It is definitely in line with my passion, with my personal mission, and my experiences as well.  All day yesterday I was musing and contemplating on this opportunity.  Surely there will be many applicants who will apply for this job.  What would make me stand out from the rest?
Thinking about it more, I have come to a conclusion that it’s not a matter of “standing out from the rest” it’s a matter of “am I the right fit?“. So, let me tackle that a bit.  Let me lay the cards out here and let them decide if I am the piece of the puzzle they are looking for. I will bare all – the pluses and the minuses, the way I see it. The reasons why they should hire me, and the reasons why they might think it won’t work out.


Let me change my voice from here on and let’s pretend I am talking to HopeLab:
THE PLUSES:
1. HopeLab needs someone who is “passionate, driven, innovative, and fun to work with”. My references can attest that I have those qualities.  In the virtual world, you can check with @Jowyang, @NEENZ, @RoxanneDarling@Peterliu47 and more (I can give you hundreds of references).  In real life IRL, you can e-mail my boss at Spencer Homes Maui. I worked with Spencer Homes for 13 years … we are slow at the moment, so I am in-between jobs.  I am sure they will call me back once we start our new project. But for now, I need a job.
2. I am passionate about using the emerging media to accomplish life’s missions and make a difference in my family and friends, my community, and the world.  I have used it to help family in crisis, promote the tourism industry in the island I live on, and foster good communication among parents and teachers in the school where my kids go to. I use social media effectively in many ways. I am very active in the social media world.  I have a very good reputation. Klout.com says I am influential when I checked on my status as @amauiblog. “Thought leader” is the term they used.


3. I am passionate about helping kids live healthy lives.  “I am a mother, hear me roar!” was one of our favorite line in this parents forum that I was very active at at one point (Schwablearning.com).  I have two kids, one just turned 13 and one turning 12 soon.  Seriously, I am a mother who has a  a mission to raise my kids right in this crooked world of ours.  It’ll be great to have the opportunity to help more kids in addition to my own.
4. I love sticky notes. I use them all the time!
THE MINUSES
1. I live on Maui, Hawaii. HopeLab’s office is in San Franscisco Bay Area.  I do not think I can convince my family to move to CA.  Actually I love living on Maui myself.  Would Hoplab allow virtual remote offices?  Would there be an airline sponsoring me to go to their office on a regular basis to touch base?
2. I am not a bona fide geek.  I am a semi-geek.  I do have the technical knowledge and abilities to use many of the social media applications, but I know that I still have to learn a lot more.  I can easily learn though. And I am good friends with a lot of geeks.  Collaboration is the key in overcoming this weakness.
3. English is my second language.  I love to write and I express myself well in writing.  However, in writing blog posts, I take a lot of time because I have to check and double check my English.  I don’t write as eloquently as many writers do.  Most of my writings are conversational and not journalistic. I do not use a lot of “big words”.  Feel free to check out my blogs (A Maui Blog and Liza’s Eyeview) and there you will see my writing styles.
THE IN-BETWEEN
There are many things to consider I am sure.  In between those plusses and minusses, there are skills that I have, educational background, experiences, personality traits, etc.  For more of that formalities, please check out my Linked In Page: Liza Pierce


It would be nice to hear from HopeLab.  Maybe an interview would give us a better understanding wether I fit or not. We shall see…. stay tuned.

This Will Only Take A Few Minutes, I Promise

There are 101 things to do on my list.  And writing this post is not one of them.  But this will only take a few minutes, I promise.  I just want to give you some updates on me (assuming that you are interested to know about me):

* HopeLap e-mailed me. They loved my post.  They recognized my influence in the Social Media world.  However, the glitch that I thought was a glitch is still a glitch.  Actually, it’s not just a glitch.  It’s a hindrance.  It boils down to “I am on Maui and they are on Redwoods City, San Francisco Bay, California”.  The person to get the job has to be there, not here.  Should I move there then? Nah! Can’t. Anyway, it was very encouraging to hear from them.  I still support Hopelab and now that I am made aware of it and its mission, I will help promote them.

* I am re-igniting my passion for being an advocate for kids with learning disabilities.  The passion actually hasn’t died, but it was buried a little bit as I focused more on promoting Maui, than developing a blog about LD that I started earlier.  So after I log off here, I am heading to that blog called Learning Nest” to upload more info there.  I also am re-uniting with a group of parents who are passionate advocates for kids with learning disabilities.  It’s good to be surrounded with peeps who knows exactly what a parent of a child with LD is going through.

* I still have a cough.  I just took a spoonful of Robitussin cough syrup and it tasted horrible! Whoever invents a cough syrup that will taste like ice cream and still works will be  billionaire. Bleh! the aftertaste of this syrup is still in my mouth!

Ok, few minutes up! Aloha io!

From Vessel to Vessel, All For His Glory

Pastor Dominic announced on Sunday that he and his family are moving to England.  The first official announcement was done last Wednesday night. (listen to it at God of New Things podcast) .

We just started attending Calvary Chapel South Maui about a month ago, and I was truly enjoying pastor Dominic’s teachings. I was being ministered to in a way that I needed to.  So, deep inside of me I wanted to be very  disappointed when I first heard the news. Obviously, for selfish reasons. I wanted to feel betrayed or let down.  I wanted them to stay.  But the other part of me knows it’s all in God’s hands and it’s all part of the plan.  I knew he is following God’s will.

The last 4 weeks that we are going to Calvary Chapel I kept on thinking how much the Sunday messages were designed specially for me. Each Sunday I come home feeling encouraged by the Lord through pastor Dominic’s words. The truth is, the message was designed for all of us, including pastor Dominic’s family. God has a way of working together everything for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I am sad, yes. But life will go on and God will use another one to minister to me, to us. And he will use pastor Dominic and his family in England.

Last night I listened to the podcast of the Wednesday Bible Stody (God of New Things)  where he poured out his heart as he announced this move.  The story is all too close to my heart.  Many events in my life were similar in a way (even way back when I was still in the Philippines).  I thought of blogging about those stories, but can’t even find the energy or the words to do so. All I know is that there is a common thread in the stories: that sometimes God pour us from vessel to vessel to accomplish the will that He has for us and for the world.  What I had learned is that if we are sensitive to His leading, if we obey His words, and if stay close to Him, He will lead the way and blessings will be poured upon us.  It’s not always easy, but the peace of God would always be there.

One of the church member helped pastor Dominic set up a website for him and his family. And there’s a blog in it it. Talk about getting connected.  I always believe that a blog is one of the best connecting tool available out there, and I am glad a blog was set-up for him.

So what’s next? I don’t know.  Are we staying at Calvary or are we supposed to attend Kumulani Chapel? I think we are going to take it day by day, Sunday by Sunday, until we (my husband and I) know for sure where the next vessel we should be….

Back To My Blogging Roots

It’s 4:25 AM. I am not supposed to be blogging. I am right now taking 2 weeks off from all my social media gigs to focus on helping my son get through the last 2 weeks of school without a glitch. But Liza’s Eyview is a “safe place” and a “venting place” for me so here I am.

As many of you who are friends of Liza’s Eyeview know, my son is uniquely gifted. He is what they call “gifted dyslexic” or “twice exceptional”. He has a high IQ, yet it does not transfer into his performance in school because of his dyslexia, unless he is given various accommodations. He needs close monitoring to be able to finish is school work without him getting frustrated and giving up. He also needs help in getting focused. I have spent many many hours on the internet and reading books researching how to best help him succeed in school and in life because it’s really hard being a gifted dyslexic. The good news is there are tons of information and resources out there that helps a parents help their gifted dyslexic child. The bad news is itrequires a lot of time and energy and attention – and most parents nowadays do not have the luxury of “lots of time”…. at least not I.

Back to my blogging roots. Yes, I came back here to my original blog to vent, to reflect, to contemplate, to seek support. In this blog I am at home. This is my online journal where I can pour out my emotions without any concerns … here I can ramble and not worry about what advertisers would say or how it would affect my overall niche.

Did I already tell you I am taking a 2 week off my social media gigs? Did I also tell you that I took an emergency 2 week off from my current day job which made my husband very worried. He was worried of how my bosses would react because that’s a very irresponsible thing to do – just e-mail that day (yesterday) to tell them I am taking a 2 weeks off, and it starts right now. Ahhh, that is so unlike me. And yet I had to do that. I had to do that after I logged in into my son’s “powerschool” (the website where we check their grades and performance) and saw that his grades are in the danger zone. I must intervene. I must give him an undivided attention. Not that I would do the work for him, but I must be there when he does his work to keep him focused. To keep me focused. This is what I am called to do. To make my family life a priority….

There is such too much to sort out in my life right now. Aside from the clutter in my house, there are also clutter in my mind. There are complicated decisions to make. Decisions that cannot be decided upon just by what I believe is my calling – but it had to be in line with what my husband think is best for the family. Afterall, he is the head of our family.

Ahhh… its feel so good to ramble here. That’s how I started blogging. And that’s what meant about blogging roots….

Have I already told you that love being a mom? How about the fact that I also love being a wife, a daughter, a sister and a friend? Why is life nowadays seems so complicated? We have all these gadgets to save time and yet the more time we save on these gadgets, the more stressful it seems.

Life is meant to be simple, and yet we make it hard.

Yesterday I was at Borders and I saw this Yoga DVD for $7.99. I bought it. I will do yoga for 30 minutes a day to get rid of the stiffness in my body caused by all these stress. I need to do this while I am on my “emergency mental health and undivided attention to help G mission” vacation.

Ahhh… it’s 10 minutes till 5AM. I better stop blogging and get back on checking all of the homework G accomplished last night. He worked hard last night. He even missed the Church Youth Group (which he absolutely loves attending), to focus on school project.

May this day be another productive one. Lord, help us.

Moving Forward

… I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus…. Philippians 3:12-15

Yesterday we attended Kumulani Chapel on the Westside of Maui. We have heard back in April that Ricky is back on Maui and back to being pastor at Kumulani. We wanted to visit and welcome him back but we did not get a chance until yesterday.

 
We have a long history with Kumulani Chapel, especially it’s Pastor Ricky Ryan. I met Ricky way back in the ’80’s, back in the Philippines (’87) when I was working at A New Beginning with Greg Laurie and Harvest Christian Fellowship with Dain Wadley. Bradley on the other hand knew Ricky in the late ’80’s because he was then his pastor at Kumulani Chapel here on Maui. Stevo, one of the elders at Kumulani, was the one who shared about Jesus Christ to Bradley. Bradley’s first church when he became a Christian was Kumulani Chapel. Ricky is the pastor who “dunked” him in the ocean (yes, I meant “baptized” him :) ). The first mission trip in which Bradley went to the Philippines was led by Ricky Ryan. Bradley and I did not meet at the time. We met on the second mission trip that he went to, which was with our current pastor Craig Englert. And to make that long story short, Bradley and I met and now we are are married (17 years…).
 
Back to Ricky…. Ricky Ryan is the most enthusiastic, most encouraging person you (we) can ever meet. But it’s not fake or weird enthusiasm … like saying Praise the Lord all the time and pretending everything is and will be hanky dory kinda of thing. His is authentic – something that springs out of the abundance of his heart. I think he has this gift of encouragement, that when he talks to people he touches them (us) to the core of their (our) hearts and meet their (our) needs without him even knowing what they are.
 
Anyway, enough of the intro and let me move forward. The text of his Bible teaching that day was Philippians 3:12-15 (verse written on top of this post). Bradley and I needed to hear those words in all its angles. Every word that was spoken during that teaching seems to be directed to both of us. Amazing how that happens.
 
I was going to attempt to share the teaching here but I thought it would be best to hear it from Ryan himself. Therefore I will wait for them to upload it on the Kumulani webpage and will put a link here to the teaching. Here’s where it’ll be uploaded, maybe midweek: http://kumulanichapel.com/
 
The whole day yesterday, that Philippians 3:12-15 was in my heart and mind and I think it’ll be there for a while. It’ll keep me going and moving forward in this race of life.