… I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus…. Philippians 3:12-15
It’s been a while since I blogged here at Liza’s Eyeview. A lot have happened since then. One of those that “have happened” is that I now work as social media coordinator – full time, with pay. What was once a hobby is now my job. Most people would say I am lucky. In other words, I am blessed.
One danger of turning a hobby into a job is the possibility of burn-out. Generally, passionate people who are pasionate about what they do are susceptible to burn out because they give so much of themselves doing the things that they do, that sometimes their minds or bodies cannot keep up. That’s the way with me sometimes. But I don’t want to get burned out right now. I am enjoying my job and I intend to keep it that way.
Tonight I decided to came back to Lizas Eyeview to visit my blogging roots, to get grounded and be refreshed. When I say “finding my center in the blogosphere” I meant “finding balance“. At my current job right now I am developing two new blogs, on a tight budget (understandable in this current economy). That means I cannot outsource it, I have to do it all. I like blogging so that’s a good thing, but there are so much to do. Aside from the 2 work blogs, I also have to re-construct my A Maui Blogbecause it was recently hacked. A lot of the fixing and rebuilding is already done, but there are still so many details I need to organize and update on. This should a good timing to do it, but it can’t be a priority over my 2 other projects. And aside from my full-time job, I’m still doing a part time job helping a friend develop and mainatin his social media involvement. So you see, I am pretty busy. This is not even counting doing my wifey and mommy duties – lets not go there for now.
Going back to Lizas Eyeview, it’s amazing how even with the irregular postings, my page rank is still considerably high in Google Page ranking. OK, let’s not go there either.
I had a great time visiting the blogs of my “old” bloggy friends. I think I’d do this more often.
My eyes are heavy now and I am dozing off. I think I’m going to back and will continue this musing tomorrow….
If there is one thing that truly breaks my heart, it is when I hear a child being abused. And so when I heard about the traffickjam, I decided to participate. I am thankful that I grew up in a loving and safe environment. I am thankful that my kids are also growing up in a safe and loving envinroment. But some kids are not, and I want to help them in my own little way. Would you join me?
Details of Traffick Jam 2011 are posted below. I need you support. Can I count you in? Here’s the scoop (as posted in the TrafficJam2011 Facebook for Maui):
Traffick Jam is a nationwide fundraiser that the Hard Places Community is holding on May 7, 2011. We are planning a walk-a-thon that will include all fifty states, a huge undertaking. The slogan for the walk-a-thon is Traffick Jam 2011: In one day, we can help bring child sex trafficking to a grinding halt.
We know that the idea of a walk-a-thon is not unique or new; they are done all the time. However, we believe that the low-ke…y, low-stress way we are going to go about doing Traffick Jam 2011 will encourage many people to participate.
In a nutshell, here’s what it looks like. We are asking people to sign up to walk ten miles, together, on May 7, 2011. Each participant in the walk asks ten friends to sponsor him/her. Each sponsor gives a donation of one dollar per mile. That’s ten dollars per sponsor. Many people will not be able to give huge amounts of money in these trying financial times, but they WILL be able to give ten dollars to stop the rape of a child. Ten dollars per sponsor, times ten sponsors, is one hundred dollars. So, each participant brings in $100, and also pays the $15 registration fee to cover the cost of his/her t-shirt and shipping the t-shirts to all fifty states. If we have one hundred walkers in one state, then that is $10,000. You do the math! We could raise enough money to see our dreams of FREEDOM begin to come true in Cambodia and Thailand, stretching all across South East Asia as we grow and multiply.
… but then again, maybe not.
So many things in my mind lately. If I don’t dump some of it out into my blog (or journal), I would have an overload …
There is a radical decision I am contemplating on doing this weekend. No, I am not committing suicide. I believe God gave us life to live it abundantly. I love my life – with all it’s joys and challenges. Suicide hurts, not only on own body and soul, but it hurts our loved ones even more deeply. It makes the people who loves us most and we love most suffer. If you Googled the word “committing suicide” and this post came up and you are reading it, take it as a sign that you should not do it. Enjoy life. E-mail me and I’ll talk story” with you..
There is a radical decision I am contemplating on doing this weekend. No, I am not divorcing my husband. I believe in honoring my marriage’s commitment of “till death do us part”. Sure there are ups and downs. And maybe romance is slipping away a bit and needs improvement. Bottomline, I love my husband and he loves me. That is fine. “Romance” (googly eyes on the cartoon as my kids would describe it) and “that lovin’ feeling” come and go. Commitment is the key. Life is busy, very busy at this stage in our life. That gooey feeling of romance will come back, when we find the time to bring it back. For now, we need to find time to be sane and not get caught up with the “hustle and bustle” of this world. To make the right decisions. And to be happy on where we are at. One of my best friends is moving out of their home next month. She and her husband are separating. I do not judge her. I love her so much. I know both she and her husband are wonderful people and the decision did not come lightly. But I am still sad. It’s just sad to see such a great marriage back then lose it’s bond now. I still am hoping things will be worked out. I am not giving up hope.
There is a radical decision I am contemplating on doing this weekend. I do not have the details about it. I have to study every step of the way. But I am confident it will work out for good.
I cannot tell you yet what that radical decision is. And honestly, it might seems radical to me but minini to you. Don’t get too excited about it. Don’t get too intrigued. It’s just me…. me and the many things that goes on my head that keeps me awake in the middle of the night. It’s just me and my never ending ideas and possibilities. Really, it’s not that radical for you, but for me it would be.
I hear my husband’s alarm clock going off. Time to log off the computer. Aloha and a hui hou!
There are days when I think my struggles are a test of faith that makes me closer to the Lord, but there are also days when I doubt if I am doing things right. And then I get worried that one day I would just break and get off track. “The wisdom to know the difference“. I need that. I need the wisdom to know the difference on which things I should accept and which thing I should fight to change, to make the difference. There are days when I think I am doing well, and there are days when I think I am not …
I am amused whenever I see a failwhale photo flash on my screen. Not that I would like a failwhale to happen. I am a Twitterholic, and I really don’t like it when Twitter is down. However, the failwhale logo represents something more, something worth talking about. But before I get distracted talking about a Twitter failwhale, what I really want to talk about is our life’s failwhales and how to overcome it. Let me use my recent life’s failwhales as examples:
1. FailWhale No 1: Fundrasing for Blogworld2011 – since I started blogging in 2006, one of my dreams is to be able to attend the blogworld conference. I thought that this year I will be able to do it though a fundraising campaign. But just as I launced the campaign on my blog, I got the news that my mom passed away. I flew back to the Philippines and stayed there for 10 days. The campaign was put on a back burner. When I came back to Maui, life got so busy that I didn’t have the time to work on the campaign. BlogWorld2011’s date is so close now that I don’t think I’d make it. #Failwhale! Am I bummed? Of course I am. I had been wanting to attend this for a long time. And aside from the fact that I wanted to go to LA to attend Blogworld, another desire is to go to LA to visit my brother there while I am attending Blogworld. It’s a long story, but it’s a #fail for now.
2. FailWhale No.2: Applying to be a speaker at TEDxMaui 2011 – I don’t know what possessed me to think that I am even worthy of applying to be a speaker at TEDxMaui. But the thought never left my mind when I first heard of TEDxMaui, so I did it. I knew that if I didn’t submit my “half-baked” application on the deadline, I would forever be wondering “what if”. I submitted my application the day before they announced the names of some of the speakers. The next day, when I saw thelist of speakers, I was so embarrassed that I had the “delusions of grandeur” to apply to be a speaker at TEDxMaui. What medication I was on, I didn’t know! Right now, it’s a #Fail. But then again, maybe not. You want to know what the “big idea” I had for TEDxMaui? I wanted to speak about “ENcouragement” (the TEDxMAui theme is “Courage To Dream”), which lead me to the conclusion of this post.
#ENCOURAGEMENT. – “When life thows you a #failwhale, #encouragement is your anti-dote.
Since I illustrated what a #failwhale is through my life’s example, let me also illustrate what #Encoragement (or #EncourageWIN as I’d call it) is through my life’s example.
1. #Encouragement -When I woke up this morning, I got a notification from KLOUT saying that Liz Strauss added me to her KLOUT list under GREAT MOMS. Now if you know me well, you know that’s one of the greatest compliment you can ever give me. I love being a mom. That really is a my passion. And for someone like Liz Strauss to include me in a list of great moms is a huge encouragement to me. This made my day today which made those #failwhales easy to take.
Going back to the FAILWHALE – what I love about it is that it’s the “little birds” that carrying the whale. There’s an insight to that. Think about it. Those little birds are the encouragers in my life. When the feeling of “I am a huge failure (huge as in a whale)” comes to mind, the encouragements of little birds can carry us along until we arrive at a #WIN. Gotta love those birds!
So one more time: When life thows you a #failwhale, #encouragement is your anti-dote.
It’s 5:23 in the morning. I have already been up for an hour and been tweeting, e-mailing and FB’ing. Now I am writing a post for this blog. Yeah baby, this Mama Blogger is on a roll!
Truth is I should be writing a post for A Maui Blog right now. But I thought it would be fun to visit here first. Afterall, this is my first love, my first “blog love”.
There are a lot of things in my mind right now. The upcoming Thanksgiving, my kids’ schooling, the business blog I will be resurrecting, plans for my work as a Social Media Director at Premiere Mortgage and Aloha Luxury Properties, and not to forget our daily dinners, etc.
My life is busy. Crazy busy. But I have learned to take it day by day so I don’t get stressed out by it. But there’s one thing I am a bit concern. I am noticing that our “life with friends” is being affected by our busyness . Recently we had been neglecting spending time with our “old friends”. We just don’t hang out with them as much as we used to. That is not good. Yesterday we were supposed to go to a “first birthday party” of our good friends’ son. We planned on attending but bailed out the last minute due to some complications in “the home front”. This year’s Halloween, instead of spending it with our best friends up in Waikapu which we’ve done in the previous years, we decided to stay in Kihei. Hmm…
Speaking of “this Mama Blogger Is On A Roll” I better get rolling writing my posts at A Maui Blog. Need to. Exciting things are hapenning at A Maui Blog – I need to keep up with the momentum. It was nice stopping by here for a quick visit. And if you are still reading this post up to this point, I salute you, and love you. Yep, this post is so quick and random. Thanks for reading!
… put on the full Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.
New International Version (NIV)
The last time I posted about my boobs, my blog traffic went to the roof! Got tons of traffic from people googling the word boobs! I guess here it goes again! LOL!
I started with that intro to let you all know that I am doing well. No melancholy here. The doctors’ visit went well although it was confirmed that there definitely is a lump in there. Dr. Kenny ordered an ultrasound and biopsy. We will know more after that. It may very well be just fatty tissues lumped together or simply a benign lump. We will not know the answer until after the tests. Either way, the lump has to go so I would need a surgery to remove that. Most likely I’d go to Oahu. Maybe we can hold a Tweetup at the hospital Oahu Peeps? 🙂
I wanted to write this post to share with you how I ended up discovering the lump in my breast. There could be a lesson here. This may be of help to somebody someday.
A few months ago, we found out that @MrsHawaii was diagnosed with a breast cancer. She started a blog and I read it to know how I can pray for her specifically. A few weeks later, I felt some itchiness in my boobs. No rash, no mosquito bites, just some random itchiness. Then I remembered that Mrs. Hawaii said that’s one of the first things that happened that led them to the discovery of her breast cancer. So at that time I thought I better get my yearly mammogram done since it’s been almost 3 years since I last had it done.
However, I am the kind of person who always procrastinate on doctors appointments. I know I needed to get a mammogram but I wasn’t motivated enough to actually call and schedule an appointment. I’d rather go to work or stay at home with my kids. Besides, I didn’t want to be “psycho-somatic” on this. I just kept on thinking I am fine. I did a quickie check on my boobs while in the shower and I didn’t feel lumps at all. So everything was ok. Some occasional random itchiness still happens but just totally ignored it.
Now, about a week ago, we heard that one of our friends was diagnosed with a pancreatic cancer, Stage III, and he had to go to the mainland to be treated. We knew it’s fatal and we hoped for the best. Yesterday, Father’s Day, we got a text saying that he died. One week! One week from the diagnosis, he died.
We started talking about cancer. How some types of cancer can easily be treated when caught on an early stage (like breast cancer) and how others are just fatal, and when you’re diagnosed with it, you better get the life of your family in order. And so we talked about the importance of being diagnosed early.
Last night before I went to take a shower, I did another self-exam on my breast. This time I did it carefully, and systematically, just like what some of the brochures on self exam teaches. And that when I felt the big lump on my right breast. I told my husband about it, I showed him where it is and he confirmed that the is a lump in there. First thing in the morning I scheduled a doctor’s appointment. No. correction: first thing in the morning, I posted on Facebook. yep, posted about it on Facebook and asked for positive thoughts and prayers.
Holly molly, you guys rock! I got hundreds of likes and comments. What a supportive family and friends I have! I am truly blessed.
Now here is the question – am I worried? The answer is “no”. I have the peace that passeth all understanding. I am positive that everything is gonna be alright.
I have to be honest though, I do not have the “name it and claim it” kind of faith. I am more of “whatever God’s will is, I will abide because I know He knows the best for me”. I did think ahead. I did ask myself serious questions like, “what if it is cancer and I’m gonna die, will I be ready?”. The answer is yes and no. Yes, I am ready in a way because I know that I will go to heaven because of Jesus Christ. But no, I am not. In a way I am not ready because I want to stay longer on earth. I want to see my son get married, I want to see my daughter get married, I want to be able to take care of my grand kids. There are still a lot of things I want to do in life. I know.. I should not even be thinking about death – but taking into consideration the fact that we just got a word that out friend just died, i couldn’t help but think about life and death.
Now back to my boobs, cancer or not, the lump will be taken out and I will go on with my life.
This little “incident” of a lump made me appreciate my family and friends, and life, even more. Oh sure many of you I only see on Facebook, but really I can feel your love and support.
So on to my little boob adventure. I hope KLOUT does not make me an authority on boobs after this 🙂
I will probably do another blog post after the test and once we get the results. Then we can all party to celebrate the fact that it’s just a benign lump, right?
A hui hou!
* I am not doing a grammar check or spelling check. Not even proofreading as I am ready to go to bed. Will proofread tomorrow. Let me know if when you find the typos as I am sure there are 🙂
Today I received a negative news. Usually we don’t like hearing the word “negative”, because it’s ummm, negative, you know what I mean. But this time the “negative” news is actually a positive. The biopsy result of the lump in my breast came back “negative” – that means there are no cancer cells! It’s just a lump, a cyst that we don’t have to worry about. The negative was a great news!
There are many things I learned though this “lump in my breast situation”. There is one that I want to emphasize right now, and that is about openness.
There is power in being open. Allowing others to others to support us and encourage us during a crisis or a difficult situation enables us to go through that situation with much confidence.
I won’t be able to fully describe the tremendous encouragement I got from family and friends right after I announced on Facebook that a lump was found in my breast and my concern that it might be cancer. Hundreds of replies. I read every single like and comments and I appreciated every.single.one of them. The prayers, the positive thoughts, the love, the notes, messages and phone calls – all poured out on me and soaked in them throughout the process. It kept me from being anxious, stressed or discouraged while I went through mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy. Had I kept this “lump in my breast situation” to myself, I wouldn’t have been able to receive such outpouring of love. This is indeed a lesson to learn. When one goes through difficulties in life, it is good to be open to allow others to bless us with their love.
Speaking of being open, I am also glad that I am very open about my faith in Jesus Christ, and that I give God the glory for the negative result of my lump. I am always careful about doing this (calling it answered prayers) because I want to be sensitive to others who receive a different news than what I had. When one gets a news that they have cancer, that does mean that their prayers were not answered and they have lesser faith than I do? Absolutely not. It just means that God has another plan for their lives. It is quite a complicated subject that can only be understood through the eyes of faith.
Once again, I want to express my deepest appreciation for all the support I got. The prayers and positive thoughts I received from family and friends from various faith and beliefs made this “lump scare” not so scary at all.
So much to talk about, so much to share….. until next time …
For a long time, I resisted on creating a bucket list. However, while on the plane coming back from our wonderful visit in Connecticut, I decided to put together a list. Let’s start with travels:
A. Visits and Travels
- Vacation to the Philippines with my teens, preferably during the Christmas season.
- Visit my brother Relly and his family in LA
- Visit my cousins Neil and Noel and Noel’s family.
- Go to New York City with Noelle – Mom and Daughter get away
- Go to France with Noelle – another Mom and Daughter get away
- Got to Lego Land as a Family – for Gardner
- Family Vacation in Italy
- Tour Israel with my family or myself
- Tour Europe
- See the Grand Canyon
- Island Hop – visit all the Hawaiian Islands
- Visit my friends, the Mestidios, in Canada
- Disney World Family Vacation
- Tour around the Philippines – Boracay, Palawan, etc.
- A Safari Tour with Gardner
- Visit the Philippines and host a grand reunion with my relatives
- Visit the Philippines and host a grand reunion with my high school friends (one of the best times of my life)
- Visit the Philippines and host a grand reunion with my college friends (special times!)
- Visit the Philippines and Spend time at the Prayer Mountain
For the first time in our family life here on Maui, we are celebrating Thanksgiving by ourselves. No friends around. Just us – Bradley, Gardner, Noelle and Liza. It feels kinda weird. We are used to having friends in our house, or going to a friend’s house. The kids keep on asking “is anyone coming tomorrow?” I think they too thinks it’s kinda weird that we are celebrating Thanksgiving by ourselves. It’s almost like we are left out.
I am sure we will be doing a lot of calling family and friends around the US to greet each and everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. But we will be eating Thanksgiving Dinner as a family, just us.
I think being by ourselves might be good thing. Maybe we really need it, and it’s meant to be. We can converse as a family. We can talk about what we are thankful for. We can be at ease with ourselves. I know it may be my “introvert” self talking right now. But I am a firm believer of always looking at a positive in every situation, and interacting as a family is a good thing.
We are deep frying a turkey. We are cooking all the traditional side dishes that goes with it. Bradley is baking his famous delicious Apple Pie. And we are going to have a sit down meal together. I even bought some flowers to make our table look nice (yep that’s the one on the photo above).
We are blessed in more ways than one. It is proper to take the time to reflect and be thankful for all the wonderful blessings we have. Happy Thanksgiving to all!